Just watch dalas think that johnross is kushty. Cheer up lads on here we all have are bad days.been reading threw these blogs I understand were yous are comeing from it can be hard and very lonly not having anyone u can trust to talk abt ur feelings with and thinking u will never wil find anyone to just have a chat with or to just go to the pub with and be ur self with .o well donk think what iv put is going to have cheered u up lol love mark x
Yea I have a drink why not helps me get threw this heart ach .how cum ur up late u been out some were mush. This film goes on to long. U in a kin or a varda mush.mark
I used to see one of the boys all the time at coventry but since every one said this that and the other never seen him I don't really know if I belive it cos you know how people talk he never seemed gay at all tbh
What time was yous lads on here last night I missed yous.bloody cold out here walking the dogs think my fingers are going to snap off. Thought I would of found some on here to rocker to or text two. I hate it down were i am.the travlers down here are the first to talk abt anyone but for get this lane has got the Worse name in the country lol . Got to go mark x
Pissed off feel like walking off can't stick this I'm going mad. Yea we can text mush but how mush were u from haveing a shit day can't sleep 3 in the morning mark x
Yea I saw that pic he's some sort iv seen him in real life too he's even better.mush who left his number how old are u and were. U from . Got to get a spare chip mark x
Not had chance to get a chip mush u up mush its midnight look I'm rummered mush its trashing and I know iv got to be careful these dings on who just want to. Out you. I can see these a lot of chavis on here in the ssame boat as me. Mark x
How many mushs are on here tonight as I said befor more than 20 less than 30 lol.the only bit of time I get to my self all my lot asleep are u from down the lane. Mark x
Herd abt it went there never stoped there long got trashed and went that was a long time ago tho. This seems weid lol texten to some one the same mark xxx
U don't say names on here. I wonder if we know one anuther I'd love to have that in my hand now this is mad u say u don't live down here any more . Markxxxx
I just feel like am so alone I don't wish I was dead or wanna kill me self nothink like that just like there is a load of bricks way inn me down I did got to a gay support group but they don't under stand do they? It just not taking to others like me self but how do u go about this I read thru the blogs evey one seems like they going thru hell just what is the best thing two do sam
never let anyone make you bad about yourself, less than or ashamed of who you are just because you like a bit of the old cory. fuck them. it's non of their business anyway. im 32. an english traveler through and through, both sides. it's taken me a long time to get into this frame of mind. god knows, ive had my shair of heart ach, pain, worry. ive suvved gorger girles and felt disgusted, just to fit in. but now i know its them who are wrong. i love aspects of the culture i was born into but some i hate! i just wish travelers would hury the fuck up and evolve into something more excepting, open minded and enlightend and in some ways it is. But it has a long way to go
p.s. im generaly not an angry chavey by the way. it just angers me when i hear travling lads still going through and feeling the same as i did 10 years ago! for fuck sake. fellas you have to think bigger. non of my family know im queer but ive managed to carve a life out for myself. ive put a little distance between myself and them. i still have a kushty relationship with them but to be honest, its kind of on my own terms. i love my family and respect their cultural differencesI but i dont let it rule my life. cos its just that, my fucking life. and you only get one as far as i know. There's a big wide world out there boys. grip it and rip it!
Sam you are ment to do what ever the fuck you want with yourself. As travlers we're conditioned into thinking our lives should follow a certain path, i.e. marry a decent traveling racklie, go out horking, have tickner. Personally i can't think of anything more boring and less apealing. I think we're the lucky ones. Our lives are a blank page for us to create. We can do what the hell we want. We just have to stop feeling guilty, like we've let our families down. We havn't. If anything, they've let us down by not loving their child unconditionaly. You must never loose sight of that. It's them that's wrong and warped minded not us. Go out, have some fun. you'll be able to get away on the sly if you put your mind to it. Be brave, be strong, be clever be independant. As travlers these qualities are inherant in us. So tap into them and use it .
Tom I like what ur saying u should be strong and not let it get u down but u should know it ant easy we are all not as strong minded as u . Some of us ant strong as u and to move out and leave home and have ur family hate u for doing is not easy are u realy happy u saying u live on ur own so that u can do what u want I bet that gets lonley sometimes tho I got masrried and iv got tickners I wouldn't change that for the world they are my life. Mark
Hi Mark, You're right mush, of course you are! We're all differant. And please dont get the wrong idea, I'm not trying to say my life is perfect or that anyone should be wreckless and go shouting it from the rooftops. As ive said, non of my family know and we have several fighting men in the family who'd probably kill me if it was confirmen. then there's the shame it would cause my family to feel. me dad would be ladged to death. But the differance now is, it dosn't haunt me like it used to. I don't let it. It took me ages to get to this point. I've always known i was differant. even back in the day when i'd force myself to go with gorger girls. One of the things that helped me get my mound round it all was several sessions with a good counselor. Pamela she was called. I went and seen her privately when I was 25-26 ish. and she helped me straighten out my thinking. I think that was when I started to turn the corner. I'd been keeping so much in for such a long time it was a healing to let it all out to this intelligent woman, who could help me make sense of it. I think it was then when i stared to turn the corner. I just thought 'I dont want to do this to myself anymore. But to answer your question Mark, 'am I really happy?' I'd say I think Ive made the best of a bad situation, (for me). Being gay has forced me to think deferant than i would have and do differant things. I have a full, busy life. I have good friends, work hard, love the gym. I do college, even if it's just one night a week. I focus on the good things and if i fancy the occational night out on the gay scene, I go! So basically, Im content with my lot. im greatful for my life and i remember a time when i wasn't. In comparison to where i was when i was in the thick of 'trav world', as i call it. Yes I'm a happy soul x BTW Mark you sound like a nice boy. no wonder you're so popular on ere x
Tom u can sure text lol I get what ur saying but how dids u explain to ur family abt moving out and living on ur own . How old are u mush u sound like a nice chavi to mark x
I get called Puff gay all the time I think even people talk about me it gets me down all the time so am going to find a wife just to prove them wrong even thow there right its breaking me down I can't cope no more
Mark I'm 32. and yes, i know i am ranting on a bit but I've only just discoverd this blog and It's a revilation to me. (how old are you btw?) I can't believe I'm actually talking to other gay traveling lads. How fucking kushty would it be if a few of us got together sometime for a few pints and a chat? But im not daft, I know that's very unlikely to ever happen. I first moved out when I was 22. My family knew I had gorger pals and they didn't mind too much. Partly because there was a thriving drug culture among the traveling boys in the town where we were stopping at the time and they didn't want me getting involved with it. So b4 I moved out I took baby steps. I went on holiday with gorgers. My mother had concerns but i reminded her non of my friends did drugs and were probably more decent than most the traveling lads. And then i just kept pushing bundries. I went to house sit for some friends while they were away on holiday for two weeks. The thing is, my mother and farther knew i was a good lad. I didnt drink much, do drugs or get into bother and I've always been a grafter. They werent as impressed with things they heard about what the other traveling boys got upto. So that really was my way out really. My only exposure to it now is family, wedding, christnings and funerals and that's enough! To the guy who commented just above, I hate the word Puff and I'll bet you're worth 50 of anyone of them that call you it. Never forget, It's them who are wrong not you. You're not something bad you're perfect, just as god made you. I can't give you any practical advice, because everybody's situation is differant. You just have to ask yourself what do you really want? Not what they want or expect of you, but what you want for yourself and then find a way to make it happen. It's the only way you'll be happy. I dont even know you boys and probably never will, but i feel such love and respect for you and such a connection. Because only we can understand eachother. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
to tom livi..mush im a bit oder then you.and not far from essex.m8 im in the same boat .you seam like a proper sentsaball man.i sumtimes think how menny ov us no eash uther but dont no wer like that.i minte no you ..you minte no me..but i wish i did no you,,lol
Am bi and I love my life love cock more than a woman am 19 been mariad for years for 2 years boys its 2013 grow some balls and get out there and live your life befor its to late x
hey i liked what tom said, i think he is more of a man than many of the straight lads who would laugh and put us down, so respect to him for finding a way to live a life, thats what i want, an id love to get in touch with him and talk over a drink, i also feel for sam, i feel like he does, i dont want to hurt or shame my family, coming out isnt a choice for me, at the same time, i dont know how to get through each day, im an only son too, i on this site, theres lots of mushes going on abt sex and stuff knowing they wont ever meetup, too trashed of being outed by the very ones we should be safe with, it may never happen, but i just wish a few decent lads could find each other as friends, if we could, then together we would be stronger, instead of all the lads who roker on here, all being alone in the same places, not even knowing the boy a few feet away is just as unhappy.
you know whats even worse than being like this and being alone? its when you think you at last found somebody else that understands, and you thank god for finding a friend at last! then, for no reason, they just dont bother with you again, makes you feel 100 times worse and like rubbish, cos it feels like theres no hope left.
Sam mush, I'm gona give you a call after the weekend. I think you need someone to pore your heart out to, someone who's been through the same and understands. What's the best/safest time to call you mush? Please don't be offended: but I'll probably withhold my number first time I ring you. You come across like a sound chavi, and I know you will be, but things are sometimes not what they seem and we all have to protect ourselves.
A couple of people commented on some of my recent posts, saying that I’m a strong person and not everyone can be as strong as me. Well that’s very flattering, but I don’t consider myself to be a particularly strong person. It’s more that I just know the difference between what’s right and wrong. And I respect myself enough to hold to the truth.
Imagine that you are standing in a crowded room with 300-400 people. Everyone in the room is telling you that carrots are not orange in colour but purple! And they are adamant! Screaming that you are wrong, that carrots are not orange at all. Would you believe them? …………No! Of course you wouldn’t. Because you have a brain. You can think for yourself and you know what’s right no matter how many says different.
Well for me it’s the same with the gay issue. I don’t give a fuck how many people disagree with me. BY BEING GAY WE ARE HURTING NO ONE! FINAL!!! In fact, we are doing the world a huge favour because we’re not the ones breeding like rabbits in an already grossly overpopulated planet.
Travellers are one of the most judgemental races on the face of the earth. Which is strange considering they have been harshly judged and persecuted themselves right through history. You’d think they would have learned a bit of compassion by now, but nope. Sadly they haven’t! And we’re the victims of their reluctance to accept change even though everything is changing around them. So sad.
It’s a classic case of warped cultural conditioning. Is it right that a woman is beaten in the streets of some Muslim countries for accidentally showing her ankles? Is it right that in parts of Africa a woman can be stoned to death for having an affair while the man gets off scott free? Is it right that travellers have a zero tolerance policy on homosexuality when it hurts no one? NO to all the above I say.
Nothing will convince me being gay is a ‘dirty little secret’. A secret yes. One that you’re only keeping to humour their backward thinking for a while. Till you decide what the next step is best for you!
Over and out peeps. God I love you boys. You’re such good listeners lol xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
P.S. The boy who posted just after my "live your life. Amen" post. You soung like my kind of guy and I'd love to get a beer with you sometime. I agree with every word you wrote. x
Boys get a life. All the chat sounds the same its like a blog for the samaritons. What am I gonna do ? What if anyone sees me ? I can't tell my family ? I wanna die ? All the same shit. Gro a pair meet up with a lad and have some fun. You never know you might meet mr right. I did !
I'm down the lane cambridge that's three we shuold all meet up fort a drink? It wil never happen but it should if its just us what harm would it be love mark x
hey tom! im the mush that posted just after your live your life amen post! thanks, i would realy love to talk with you more, its kushty to know somebody thinks the same way. my number is 07955526326, text me 1st as im not always free to chat, or if you dont want to show your number the 1st time, try callin me on thursday, im not always on here but il come on to check if you got this ok, and thanks again for being a nice lad. x
Sam, I'll try tonight mush but i can't promis anything. If I can't let me know when's the next best time to phone.
The boy just above. I'll go for the thursday option if that's ok. I've copies your number so if you want to romove that post to stop divs ringing then go for it!
I'm really looking forward to talking to you boys.
I know it sounds divey, but I feel a bit like we're making history here. Like we're part of a movement or a mini revolution. And its all thanks to the world wide webb. God I love Tim Berners-Lee, (he was the british mush who invented the internet btw).
I'm 28 and have had a pretty touth like with all the same stuff going on as all you on here!!! I have always new I was gay and growing up pulling on different camps going to York races Cambridge fair Birmingham dance I have seen and done all of that and had the best time doing it but in other ways I hated it as I hated the small minded people you come across trailers are some of the loveliest people you could ever meet but Also some of the worst who live in a bubble that we are a supirer race which we are not we are all the same!!! I made the my mind up that I wasn't going to live that life of crying myself to sleep every night driving around in my van just wishing I could get away or wishing I was dead!! I realised that the world was a big place and I wanted and needed to see more of it!! I was 22 and went out and tired to make gorger friends people who I could learn from and go out with and went to my very first gay bar!! I have never looked back since and can truly say that I wouldn't change being gay for anything it's part of who I am!! If any one needs to talk reply!
Ps I guess I would just really love to talk to another traver who as been through the same as me or anyone that just needs some one to talk to I know that I would of loved that when I was growing up!!! Like I said I'm 28 very normal a proper traveller English from Essex likes going to the gym all the normal stuff!!
hey tom thats kushty, you can call me on thursday between 8.30am-10.am or after 12.pm, keep trying me and il pickup! also, i can talk after 12.pm tommorrow, thats monday, 11, feb! love to hear from you! lol and yes, we are making history!
Hello fellas would love to meet other needies im ached in London and bin out half me live n only meet three other needies on the gay scene and that took yrs , and it turn out to be Distant cousins so I think being a punnie is in the DNA , any one out there that would like to meet up
looking to meet up with another guy i am in north london i am half half as dad a traveler and mum not i have lived a mixed life but want to go back to my roots and meet a traveler guy i am 27 i am not out and have a number which i got to try meet someone off ere 07905808830 chat soon yer harry
Any one up have had a shit day sick of this weather and can't get any of the old phones I've got to work so I can put me number up on here . O and my mush if u still are I'll text u as soon as I can markxxx
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any1 got any crack horny and bord
any1 got any crack horny and bord
Yer stick your finger up your hole
id like your finger up there
Just watch dalas think that johnross is kushty. Cheer up lads on here we all have are bad days.been reading threw these blogs I understand were yous are comeing from it can be hard and very lonly not having anyone u can trust to talk abt ur feelings with and thinking u will never wil find anyone to just have a chat with or to just go to the pub with and be ur self with .o well donk think what iv put is going to have cheered u up lol love mark x
Sat watching braveheart not my type of film realey abt abt midnight now anyone up for a chat mark x
Any boys from cambridge
Not far away mush lol u from down the lane .mark
Can't say mark lol how old r u
Any one ever come across travler boys dogging yep I did today
More than 20 not more than 30 lol how abt u.what u up to mush apart from being on here.mark
Well mark u don't give much away ha dat a good thing me just littel older then me front teeth ha ha . Not a lot happening here lol
Can't mush got to becareful but wouldn't be nice if we was doing this over a drink in a bar ha . U rummerd mush. Mark
Mm might be . U like a drink yeh lol
Yea I have a drink why not helps me get threw this heart ach .how cum ur up late u been out some were mush. This film goes on to long. U in a kin or a varda mush.mark
U got a name I can call u mush. Mark x
Me in a traller mush proper gypsy . Can't sleep not a lot on telle .
Call me joe
Good night mush x
Goodnight sweet dreams x x
Any boys from cambridge looking for fun
What do u mean by fun? Markx
The boy above he needs cock
Any one on here
Looking for the fella from bolton me from london
Any one been dogging befor
Yes mush I been a few times
I need a chavy to cur me wright now god I'm so horny
ill cur ya..wear you from
From london wot about u
To cold for work sitting in me van wotching the work chave love to kerr him in the back of me van now
How up for a cerr then
Were all da boys at
Boy in the van wot happening
Any one up for a meet must be a travller good time x x x
Boys any of yous cambridge way . Mandi is sick of living like this alone just be nise to have some one to rockewr two. Mark x
Hello camb man wot age r u
How out to play to night
im from harlow 30 od.ill meet up with a nuther travler.i think tht firstething ill say to you is dorde..lol
Trashing init mush
The boy from harlow I'm a travler 29
Were is evrey one at
Been reading the blogs I wounder if the fella in the van today done any work or wotch the workman all day
Iknow lol I wouldn't mind getting a mush in the back iv my van. The timing on here is always wrong its abt 12.15 any body up mark x
I'm laid in bed feeling horny no won to chat two. mark good nght x
How up for sum fun then the weekend almost on us thank god
Were all da boys at then wots da crack then
Nerver any one on here
Anyone up mark
What really happen too them boys in coventry
Not herd a thing
Meant to be ruff tho
Any one up for a meet cum on boys
So they gay then or not who where they
Were all da gypsy boys at
Any one ever messed with a boy as he been sleep in same bed
they was sucking eack other sucking each other off so if thats not gay then i dont know what is hahaahaha feel sorry that they got found out tho
How old was thay
I bet thay was having a good time untill da got caught
I used to see one of the boys all the time at coventry but since every one said this that and the other never seen him I don't really know if I belive it cos you know how people talk he never seemed gay at all tbh
you dont have to act like rylan to be a puff lol
Got to be carefull boys
Is my blogs cuming up
Laying in bed feeling so horny
Hello mark
Never no one on here
Iam so horny
What time was yous lads on here last night I missed yous.bloody cold out here walking the dogs think my fingers are going to snap off. Thought I would of found some on here to rocker to or text two. I hate it down were i am.the travlers down here are the first to talk abt anyone but for get this lane has got the Worse name in the country lol . Got to go mark x
Init cold
Any travlling boys wanna chat?
How old you mark
Mark poplor boy now mmm
Me stoping at sandy any one about new to all this
hey mark, how u doin? are u always pulled down there? i hate that lane! im just after friends, nothin more.
Is my blogs cuming up
Been down there for a while how abt u mush.I'll be ur freind mush lol .markx
What if I don't just want sex and wanna be with some one what happens then?
hey mark, taa for sayin ul be me pal, some lads aint interested if its not all about kurin. can we text?
What was the lads names that got court at Coventry
Y u need to now for
Any boys from cambridge laying in bed filling horny
if the cov lad who i think hes a good fuck.
I used to kear a lad from coalvle trav abot 28 he lovd me cock rite up him am hard now thikin of him he single I thnk
Pissed off feel like walking off can't stick this I'm going mad. Yea we can text mush but how mush were u from haveing a shit day can't sleep 3 in the morning mark x
hey mark mush iv been havin a week like your shit day, text me on 07955526326 and il tell u more abt me, too many divvys on here! lol
Who he then
Any one see shayne ward in the sun today sexxy I say x x x
Me laying in bed felling hornd up
Yea I saw that pic he's some sort iv seen him in real life too he's even better.mush who left his number how old are u and were. U from . Got to get a spare chip mark x
Marks seem's to be a sad little wanna be
Well dat me done with cold england off in a few hrs to spain three weeks sun sea sex and more sex
What's ur problam mush . Mark
I stick me fingers up me bum now it hurts what do I do HELP!
Not had chance to get a chip mush u up mush its midnight look I'm rummered mush its trashing and I know iv got to be careful these dings on who just want to. Out you. I can see these a lot of chavis on here in the ssame boat as me. Mark x
Hello mark x x x
Hello who is this have u got a name I can call u mush andwere u from .some. One else who can't sleep .markx
I'm in same boat to mush trashing init wish I new were to go and have sum fun around here
Aruond were. Are u the one who left the number markx
No not me r u the fella from the lane mark x x
Laying in bed got the horn rotten
Yea that's me love the place? Mark and you
Been gypsy boys newnham woods cambridge got me prick sucked by a gorger boy tonight
Y u up late me can't sleep mark iam 26 wot age r u x x
Lucky you must be trashing tho mush to go there was it late when u was there I though that little carpark gate got loaked at night. Mark
Any travler boys now any dogging site were other travlers go
How many mushs are on here tonight as I said befor more than 20 less than 30 lol.the only bit of time I get to my self all my lot asleep are u from down the lane. Mark x
It does yeh park in the street and wailk over the littel bridge you been down ther mark x x x
I used to mush not now to much going on down ther all the time
Sum good sorts tho down ther
Herd abt it went there never stoped there long got trashed and went that was a long time ago tho. This seems weid lol texten to some one the same mark xxx
Ther a few place around not just down ther lv seen a few gypsy men down ther x x x
Were u at mush now if u can say mark x
Sum good sort down the lane mark mm x x x
Laying here by myself
Me prick rock hard
U is making me feel horny know .mark
I wish I was laid now with a mush like u now how kushty would that be mark xxx what u got on lol
Rock hard mark not going to say names ther two boys down ther like us x x
Nothing on u all horned up u go to gym
Love to kerr sum one now
Mark I do things to u thant u only dream about x x x
U don't say names on here. I wonder if we know one anuther I'd love to have that in my hand now this is mad u say u don't live down here any more . Markxxxx
Mark I do things to u thant u only dream about x x x
Nop not for a long time still go newnham wen I need sorting out
I play with u all night mark x x x
Well one day u might be able to. So u go to the gym then I bet ur well toned up. Markx
God I'm rock hard
Just a littel do u go to the gym you feeling horny x x x
U don't live far from here then are u rummered do u mix with any one down here o my cock is hard markxx
No name yeh travler e class silver merk down ther good ker
Yea when I get chance two which is not ofton. Yea got my hand on it now. Mark xxx
Not realy mix me and that fella meet a few times u now how I mean I'm rock hard mark u had any fun latly x x x
Wot u got on x x x
Mark wot u doing x x x
Do u mean u r rummered or not and what was that last blog abt becareful abt what u put. I'm getting close markxxx
Just my boxes on but might take them of. all the others are going to have a good read tomorrow arnt they mark x
U got a number mush markx
I fet a chip tomorrow r u got them off yet
Mark me need a good seeing to
You doing it x x x
Were did u go
Yea I got there felt good x night mush . Give me a name so I no its u xxx mark
I just feel like am so alone I don't wish I was dead or wanna kill me self nothink like that just like there is a load of bricks way inn me down I did got to a gay support group but they don't under stand do they? It just not taking to others like me self but how do u go about this I read thru the blogs evey one seems like they going thru hell just what is the best thing two do sam
Were u from sam .
never let anyone make you bad about yourself, less than or ashamed of who you are just because you like a bit of the old cory. fuck them. it's non of their business anyway. im 32. an english traveler through and through, both sides. it's taken me a long time to get into this frame of mind. god knows, ive had my shair of heart ach, pain, worry. ive suvved gorger girles and felt disgusted, just to fit in. but now i know its them who are wrong. i love aspects of the culture i was born into but some i hate! i just wish travelers would hury the fuck up and evolve into something more excepting, open minded and enlightend and in some ways it is. But it has a long way to go
p.s. im generaly not an angry chavey by the way. it just angers me when i hear travling lads still going through and feeling the same as i did 10 years ago! for fuck sake. fellas you have to think bigger. non of my family know im queer but ive managed to carve a life out for myself. ive put a little distance between myself and them. i still have a kushty relationship with them but to be honest, its kind of on my own terms. i love my family and respect their cultural differencesI but i dont let it rule my life. cos its just that, my fucking life. and you only get one as far as i know. There's a big wide world out there boys. grip it and rip it!
Wish I was like u beinging the only son I can't give them grand child what am I ment two do with me self sam
Sam you are ment to do what ever the fuck you want with yourself. As travlers we're conditioned into thinking our lives should follow a certain path, i.e. marry a decent traveling racklie, go out horking, have tickner. Personally i can't think of anything more boring and less apealing. I think we're the lucky ones. Our lives are a blank page for us to create. We can do what the hell we want. We just have to stop feeling guilty, like we've let our families down. We havn't. If anything, they've let us down by not loving their child unconditionaly. You must never loose sight of that. It's them that's wrong and warped minded not us. Go out, have some fun. you'll be able to get away on the sly if you put your mind to it. Be brave, be strong, be clever be independant. As travlers these qualities are inherant in us. So tap into them and use it .
Tom I like what ur saying u should be strong and not let it get u down but u should know it ant easy we are all not as strong minded as u . Some of us ant strong as u and to move out and leave home and have ur family hate u for doing is not easy are u realy happy u saying u live on ur own so that u can do what u want I bet that gets lonley sometimes tho I got masrried and iv got tickners I wouldn't change that for the world they are my life. Mark
Hi Mark, You're right mush, of course you are! We're all differant. And please dont get the wrong idea, I'm not trying to say my life is perfect or that anyone should be wreckless and go shouting it from the rooftops. As ive said, non of my family know and we have several fighting men in the family who'd probably kill me if it was confirmen. then there's the shame it would cause my family to feel. me dad would be ladged to death.
But the differance now is, it dosn't haunt me like it used to. I don't let it. It took me ages to get to this point. I've always known i was differant. even back in the day when i'd force myself to go with gorger girls.
One of the things that helped me get my mound round it all was several sessions with a good counselor. Pamela she was called. I went and seen her privately when I was 25-26 ish. and she helped me straighten out my thinking. I think that was when I started to turn the corner. I'd been keeping so much in for such a long time it was a healing to let it all out to this intelligent woman, who could help me make sense of it. I think it was then when i stared to turn the corner. I just thought 'I dont want to do this to myself anymore.
But to answer your question Mark, 'am I really happy?' I'd say I think Ive made the best of a bad situation, (for me). Being gay has forced me to think deferant than i would have and do differant things. I have a full, busy life. I have good friends, work hard, love the gym. I do college, even if it's just one night a week. I focus on the good things and if i fancy the occational night out on the gay scene, I go! So basically, Im content with my lot. im greatful for my life and i remember a time when i wasn't. In comparison to where i was when i was in the thick of 'trav world', as i call it. Yes I'm a happy soul x
BTW Mark you sound like a nice boy. no wonder you're so popular on ere x
Tom u can sure text lol I get what ur saying but how dids u explain to ur family abt moving out and living on ur own . How old are u mush u sound like a nice chavi to mark x
this has turnt out a right dear derdry.cum on boys for fuck saek.
I get called Puff gay all the time I think even people talk about me it gets me down all the time so am going to find a wife just to prove them wrong even thow there right its breaking me down I can't cope no more
Mark I'm 32. and yes, i know i am ranting on a bit but I've only just discoverd this blog and It's a revilation to me. (how old are you btw?) I can't believe I'm actually talking to other gay traveling lads. How fucking kushty would it be if a few of us got together sometime for a few pints and a chat? But im not daft, I know that's very unlikely to ever happen.
I first moved out when I was 22. My family knew I had gorger pals and they didn't mind too much. Partly because there was a thriving drug culture among the traveling boys in the town where we were stopping at the time and they didn't want me getting involved with it. So b4 I moved out I took baby steps. I went on holiday with gorgers. My mother had concerns but i reminded her non of my friends did drugs and were probably more decent than most the traveling lads. And then i just kept pushing bundries. I went to house sit for some friends while they were away on holiday for two weeks.
The thing is, my mother and farther knew i was a good lad. I didnt drink much, do drugs or get into bother and I've always been a grafter. They werent as impressed with things they heard about what the other traveling boys got upto. So that really was my way out really. My only exposure to it now is family, wedding, christnings and funerals and that's enough!
To the guy who commented just above, I hate the word Puff and I'll bet you're worth 50 of anyone of them that call you it. Never forget, It's them who are wrong not you. You're not something bad you're perfect, just as god made you. I can't give you any practical advice, because everybody's situation is differant. You just have to ask yourself what do you really want? Not what they want or expect of you, but what you want for yourself and then find a way to make it happen. It's the only way you'll be happy. I dont even know you boys and probably never will, but i feel such love and respect for you and such a connection. Because only we can understand eachother. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
to tom livi..mush im a bit oder then you.and not far from essex.m8 im in the same boat .you seam like a proper sentsaball man.i sumtimes think how menny ov us no eash uther but dont no wer like that.i minte no you ..you minte no me..but i wish i did no you,,lol
This is mad! But that's life would u text me if I got a number mark x o this is to tom
Cum on boys u need to live year life u only get one crack of it
Am bi and I love my life love cock more than a woman am 19 been mariad for years for 2 years boys its 2013 grow some balls and get out there and live your life befor its to late x
Well saild fella sum one like myself
Reading sum of the comment above do any one now of any dogging place were travlers go
'LIVE YOUR LIFE' well said. Amen x
'LIVE YOUR LIFE' well said. Amen x
hey i liked what tom said, i think he is more of a man than many of the straight lads who would laugh and put us down, so respect to him for finding a way to live a life, thats what i want, an id love to get in touch with him and talk over a drink, i also feel for sam, i feel like he does, i dont want to hurt or shame my family, coming out isnt a choice for me, at the same time, i dont know how to get through each day, im an only son too, i on this site, theres lots of mushes going on abt sex and stuff knowing they wont ever meetup, too trashed of being outed by the very ones we should be safe with, it may never happen, but i just wish a few decent lads could find each other as friends, if we could, then together we would be stronger, instead of all the lads who roker on here, all being alone in the same places, not even knowing the boy a few feet away is just as unhappy.
I know how you feel sam
Its sam ere just wanna talking to some one let it all out 07786859775 it I don't answer keep trying
right truth now boys,im from cambridge,how meney moor from cambridge
Me to. Dats two of us
I now two from the lane
you know whats even worse than being like this and being alone? its when you think you at last found somebody else that understands, and you thank god for finding a friend at last! then, for no reason, they just dont bother with you again, makes you feel 100 times worse and like rubbish, cos it feels like theres no hope left.
getting blown out happens to the best of us. chin up mush
Sam mush, I'm gona give you a call after the weekend. I think you need someone to pore your heart out to, someone who's been through the same and understands. What's the best/safest time to call you mush? Please don't be offended: but I'll probably withhold my number first time I ring you. You come across like a sound chavi, and I know you will be, but things are sometimes not what they seem and we all have to protect ourselves.
A couple of people commented on some of my recent posts, saying that I’m a strong person and not everyone can be as strong as me. Well that’s very flattering, but I don’t consider myself to be a particularly strong person. It’s more that I just know the difference between what’s right and wrong. And I respect myself enough to hold to the truth.
Imagine that you are standing in a crowded room with 300-400 people. Everyone in the room is telling you that carrots are not orange in colour but purple! And they are adamant! Screaming that you are wrong, that carrots are not orange at all. Would you believe them? …………No! Of course you wouldn’t. Because you have a brain. You can think for yourself and you know what’s right no matter how many says different.
Well for me it’s the same with the gay issue. I don’t give a fuck how many people disagree with me. BY BEING GAY WE ARE HURTING NO ONE! FINAL!!! In fact, we are doing the world a huge favour because we’re not the ones breeding like rabbits in an already grossly overpopulated planet.
Travellers are one of the most judgemental races on the face of the earth. Which is strange considering they have been harshly judged and persecuted themselves right through history. You’d think they would have learned a bit of compassion by now, but nope. Sadly they haven’t! And we’re the victims of their reluctance to accept change even though everything is changing around them. So sad.
It’s a classic case of warped cultural conditioning. Is it right that a woman is beaten in the streets of some Muslim countries for accidentally showing her ankles? Is it right that in parts of Africa a woman can be stoned to death for having an affair while the man gets off scott free? Is it right that travellers have a zero tolerance policy on homosexuality when it hurts no one? NO to all the above I say.
Nothing will convince me being gay is a ‘dirty little secret’. A secret yes.
One that you’re only keeping to humour their backward thinking for a while. Till you decide what the next step is best for you!
Over and out peeps. God I love you boys. You’re such good listeners lol
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P.S. The boy who posted just after my "live your life. Amen" post. You soung like my kind of guy and I'd love to get a beer with you sometime. I agree with every word you wrote. x
Boys get a life. All the chat sounds the same its like a blog for the samaritons. What am I gonna do ? What if anyone sees me ? I can't tell my family ? I wanna die ? All the same shit. Gro a pair meet up with a lad and have some fun. You never know you might meet mr right. I did !
I'm down the lane cambridge that's three we shuold all meet up fort a drink? It wil never happen but it should if its just us what harm would it be love mark x
Tom levi 2night? Sam
hey tom! im the mush that posted just after your live your life amen post! thanks, i would realy love to talk with you more, its kushty to know somebody thinks the same way. my number is 07955526326, text me 1st as im not always free to chat, or if you dont want to show your number the 1st time, try callin me on thursday, im not always on here but il come on to check if you got this ok, and thanks again for being a nice lad. x
Sam, I'll try tonight mush but i can't promis anything. If I can't let me know when's the next best time to phone.
The boy just above. I'll go for the thursday option if that's ok. I've copies your number so if you want to romove that post to stop divs ringing then go for it!
I'm really looking forward to talking to you boys.
I know it sounds divey, but I feel a bit like we're making history here. Like we're part of a movement or a mini revolution. And its all thanks to the world wide webb. God I love Tim Berners-Lee, (he was the british mush who invented the internet btw).
All my love
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Cum on boys sort yr self out
John ross in dallas good sort x x
I'm 28 and have had a pretty touth like with all the same stuff going on as all you on here!!! I have always new I was gay and growing up pulling on different camps going to York races Cambridge fair Birmingham dance I have seen and done all of that and had the best time doing it but in other ways I hated it as I hated the small minded people you come across trailers are some of the loveliest people you could ever meet but Also some of the worst who live in a bubble that we are a supirer race which we are not we are all the same!!! I made the my mind up that I wasn't going to live that life of crying myself to sleep every night driving around in my van just wishing I could get away or wishing I was dead!! I realised that the world was a big place and I wanted and needed to see more of it!! I was 22 and went out and tired to make gorger friends people who I could learn from and go out with and went to my very first gay bar!! I have never looked back since and can truly say that I wouldn't change being gay for anything it's part of who I am!! If any one needs to talk reply!
Ps I guess I would just really love to talk to another traver who as been through the same as me or anyone that just needs some one to talk to I know that I would of loved that when I was growing up!!! Like I said I'm 28 very normal a proper traveller English from Essex likes going to the gym all the normal stuff!!
hey mush, id love us to talk, im not sure if we are already in contact, did you text me on sunday?
hey tom thats kushty, you can call me on thursday between 8.30am-10.am or after 12.pm, keep trying me and il pickup! also, i can talk after 12.pm tommorrow, thats monday, 11, feb! love to hear from you! lol and yes, we are making history!
The only way I seem to deal with it is drugs I know its a bad path to take but as long as it gets me thru the day its ok
Drugs don't work
Hello fellas would love to meet other needies im ached in London and bin out half me live n only meet three other needies on the gay scene and that took yrs , and it turn out to be Distant cousins so I think being a punnie is in the DNA , any one out there that would like to meet up
Any one there
Hello mush
looking to meet up with another guy i am in north london i am half half as dad a traveler and mum not i have lived a mixed life but want to go back to my roots and meet a traveler guy i am 27 i am not out and have a number which i got to try meet someone off ere 07905808830 chat soon yer harry
is eny one on hear now
Any one up have had a shit day sick of this weather and can't get any of the old phones I've got to work so I can put me number up on here . O and my mush if u still are I'll text u as soon as I can markxxx
iv ade a shit day to
Who's this what was up with ur day mark
just a poxy day never got a nuf munny
Now how u feel o well there alway tomorrow . How old are u mush and were u from mark x o I had a hangover today don't think that helped
how old ar you.wear you from
I asked first lol . Mark
31 a bit old for all ov this
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